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Why not me?

In the last one and a half months, I've been working rather intensely on a breast cancer video project. Never have I felt this emotionally attached to a project. In the sense that, the topic of cancer has not stricken anyone close to me yet. But listening to the stories of these breast cancer survivors has aroused my empathy and a sense of awareness, strongly.

Today, I interviewed a woman so resilient, she shared with me how she went from asking herself "Why me?" to "Why NOT me?". Diseases like these are indiscriminate. Often times, we feel as though we are being punished for deeds done in the past, and now have to repay it by suffering. So we bear the pain as acceptance and penance. And for some, they do it quietly.

This woman was a hospice nurse in her younger days, and scenes like that are very common to her. But she tells herself, it isn't a punishment, it is a trial in life that needs to be overcome. And "Why not me?" because coming out of this will only make her stronger.

Wise words indeed. She went on to remind that we are not made to be alone in this life. That any suffering or trials should be shared to lighten each of our burdens. Keeping news of a disease to yourself means the burdens and pain will become a heavier load, and recovering will be such an uphill task. Knowing you have family and friends beside you all the time, on the other hand, will mean that life is worth living. And life is given a whole new meaning.

So don't ask yourself, or God, "Why me?" Turn it into something positive and say, "Why not me?" Because then, you will know you are loved and are much stronger that you thought you were.



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