I guess it's pretty clear now, where things are going. Hehe...

And to answer your question, what am I feeling? I feel everything is right. Every day that passed, spent in Sydney with Lee, I felt a stronger affirmation about our relationship. Every simple detail or argument we had, challenged us in such positive ways. We fought about friends. We debated issues, petty or not. I had my "silent treatment" moments. He had to bear with my fluctuating emotional homesickness's. But I was happy that we could naturally react in the ways we did. It showed me that we could deal with a lot more in the future. It assured me that we were both on the same wavelength. That we shared the same attitudes in life. Just as all the impressions I had of him during our "online dating" became a tangible reality while living with him in Sydney.

I admit that five months was a short period of time, and that everything that happened between us happened very fast. But the fact is, we are both so honest and straightforward with each other, nothing needed to be complicated. We're also both quite aware of our own selves, wants and characters. And I think at a certain age, when our characters and attitudes are set, and you don't childishly expect the other person to change, it's easier to move forward in a relationship.

So, I'm not afraid of committing this time. Unlike before, everything now has fallen into place. The distance now is temporary, but it has reminded us that being apart dissipates the cloud nines that usually hinder lovers' judgement.

I just can't wait to be with him, every day.

Lee's upcoming almost three-week visit is obviously not going to be enough! =P