Miserably blah
I'm taking the unhappy cue from her. Not that her entry made me unhappy. More like I've been feeling wretched since I got back to KL. Yeah, I hear you...
In Sydney feel miserable... Come back to KL also miserable... How lah?The last thing I want to hear is anyone saying
"I told you so"So what? Like I'm not entitled to my emotions issit? Blah-lah... Why should I feel like I can't blog what I'm feeling just because I'll know you'll judge me?
Sometimes I wish, life was as simple as choosing all the elements that make you happy and put them in one place. That's the bad influence of being a tech geek.
Click and choose... change settings, customize your colours, backdrop...Yes lah, I know life isn't like that laaah. I cannot wish issit?
And don't say
You'll snap out of it.Of course I will. You think what? I jump out the window issit? Sorry lah, my house not that high. Gawd. Last time when I live in apartment can lah.
Bla bla bla... Pretend you oso know what else I'm ranting about here okay? I'm sure you know everything and heard it all already, yah?... bla bla bla...

28-yr old nocturnal over@nal geekette Malaysian.
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Comments
Dropped by from Bibs. Good luck with the novel!
tunku halim | May 24, 2007 7:44 AM
I wish things were that simple for me and Nil sometimes - order, click, buy, receive. For him, it's finding a job; for me, it's him finding a job and being happy.
*sigh*
Mei | May 24, 2007 7:45 AM
I know what you mean. :-)
Food, weather, people, the serenity, the lax and relax lifestyle....
When I am here, I miss everything about Singapore (and maybe a little bit of KL).
When I was in back last year, I couldn't wait to return to Australia.
Lisa Y | May 24, 2007 11:11 AM
Ah,but we DO understand what you're trying to say:)
It was the same for me when I left Paris, and same again when I left CA.But somehow, getting married and the permanance of emigrating is just a little harder to swallow.it is a commitment, and for me the commitment phobe, it was like my worst nightmares.
I think my perfect life would be drawing UK salary and living in KL.So blissfull kan?
I guess in a way I am really lucky - I have a job,I have a house,I have unrestricted visa.
bacon told me that i'd never be happy,go back to KL also complain that corrput la,hot la...in uk its too straight and narrow la, too cold la..So he tuned out already:(.But what he said is true.
What I do is note down the things that make me happy in KL and another list for UK.Do not list negative things.When you are feeling down, either rant on blog, or read the relevant lists to make you better.
hugs.
ex bridezilla | May 24, 2007 4:00 PM
eehh....i dun have to pretend i know lar, coz i dunno!:P and i'm not going to say anything oso. i follow mei...*sigh* :P
Yvy | May 25, 2007 5:00 PM
Hi Zona. I think this feeling will happen.
I've been here now for a few yrs now and even now, whenever I leave Malaysia to head back here - that feeling hits me like a thump. Thoughts of "Did I make the right decision" or "Should I start finding work closer i.e Singapore". The thing is, when I am back here, the feeling dissipates although I still have guilt that I am not accesible to my parents.
I dont ever think that this will pass y'know. Our only bet is to make the best of our 2 worlds.
mirebella | May 26, 2007 6:21 AM
Hey.. Zona,
It's never easy..! 6 yrs in a LDR and then after arriving in Canada.. i know miss singapore.. like hell.. ! but one can't have it all right..?? i had to choose what's most important to me.. and that's where my heart will always be. I'll always miss home..and will get emotional and depressed at times.. but the 2 love of my life is here.. in Canada.. and i wouldn't change anything in the world.. ;) good luck..!! stay tough..!
Mama Bok | May 26, 2007 10:37 PM
tunku halim thank you.
(rest) do you? really? think again.
the things i write here, aren't everything. the things i tell you, isn't everything.
the things i read, isn't everything you're telling me. the things you tell me, aren't everything that's going on in your life.
i won't presume to know you. don't presume to know me.
i'm sick and tired of ppl telling me they know. 'cos they don't. and also because, i don't know and have presumed to know... so i've been guilty of the same.
zona marie | May 26, 2007 11:09 PM
Does Syndey feel like a dream now?
That's how I feel when I travel between Topeka, Kansas, and California/the West Coast. When I'm back in Cali, Kansas fades away and I start craving the food and experiences I used to make Midwest living bearable. When I'm back in Kansas, my California homesickness weighs me down like a brick...and those West Coast memories fade into another dream.
I guess that's what happens when you put down roots in one part of the world and end-up living/working in another.
queenkv | May 27, 2007 11:37 PM
oh i know! i know! .....i know you like Bakuteh....
ront | May 29, 2007 9:33 PM
aunty, this for u =P
zona marie | May 30, 2007 8:57 PM