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Creative Complacent

Disco-Very asked me a couple of days ago, if the surrealism of being here has left. No. Although I've definitely fallen into the lady of leisure trap (as I have already been two months preceding my arrival =P), my complacency is engaged by the surrealist moment of realising that I am here.

I am looking at the computer he spent hours talking to me with.

I am petting his black fluffy cat whom I hear purring into the microphone every night.

I am talking to his friends I only knew by name.

I am laughing with his colleague of whom I've merely heard stories of.

I am in the photograph of the places he took for me.

I am here.

I've crossed over a time portal, really. From another person's life known through cyberspace, into reality. How can this stop being surreal?

I spent the first week here cleaning out portions of Lee's studio, instead of gallavanting about the city. Seemingly for some semblance of reality and fitting in to his life. I'm not exactly very domestic, not even in my own home. But that seems to be a rational explanation. To find a niche, so I could curl around in a warm spot. And tell myself that this is where I want to belong.

Soon enough I will have to wake and move on. Soon enough I'd've asked myself the reasons of being here. It isn't without reason, or goals. It isn't without tasks, or to form moulds. In fact, coming here I've stacked up too many creative tasks... two film script ideas, one theatre monologue that was a short film, two comic strips, one short film, and one novel. Among the handful of web projects I've promised others and myself to complete.

Soon enough, more pressing priorities will swallow those idealistic tasks. Soon enough, I will need to fondle this two inch friend for some semblance of reality. If I keep being creatively complacent.



Comments

"...to fondle this two inch friend.." just sound so wrong....

Ooo....I have to agree with Ront. ;) But I like it! :P

Looks like I found another kawan in the same 'hood'. :D

Ron =P Next time, just laugh canornot? Hehehe...

Yvy ^_~

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