click for bigger version Seems it's promotion day for entries today. Afdlin just released Sumolah's film poster with updates saying that the film has just finished editing and is going into audio dubbing mid this month.

Being the first film I've ever worked on, I've never been as excited as feeling the enormity of such a project. Working on almost 200 episodes of tv programmes just can't compare to one (possibly international) feature film! And Sumolah is big.

I'm just not sure if I should feel sad knowing I probably won't be around for its release. The idea that you're part of a team whom've created a film is something to be proud of. Seeing your name in the credits on the silver screen compared to a 21" TV, among amazingly talented industry folks, is also something. The idea of it feels so surreal. Almost, larger than life. I'm beginning to understand what Afdlin meant when he said his passion was with film rather than in tv. Maybe I should just be thankful to have been a part of it, and realise that this might just bring bigger things ahead. I don't know. Periods in between jobs always make me feel frustrated about who I am, that no matter what I've been able to achieve in, I still always feel stupidly insignificant. Only because I know there's always something bigger, better out there. And it's what I choose today that brings me tomorrow.

So, what am I doing? Where am I going? What do I want from my life? There's just so much to want and keep wanting, but you can only have what you need. I guess I just can't have everything, can I? *sigh*