It wasn't until her last question "What do you want to do?" when I found myself asking, "Do I really want this job?" Ever since the offer came, my expectations were high and I knew I clinched the job already. But my heart felt heavy in trying to decide to take it or not. Everyone else around me were completely excited about it when I told them who the company was. And truth be told, I wouldn't have second thoughts if I had this offer a year ago. But something didn't feel right.

All the feelings I had while working in my last full time job came rushing back to me. The stress, the frustration, the disappointment, the routine, the creative imprisonment - despite the awesome colleagues around me, the work and expansive learning opportunities. I just suddenly found I didn't have the passion or excitement for the projects thrown at me anymore. I just don't have the same kind of ambition for this career anymore.

So what am I gonna do with myself? The next two to three months will probably find me doing a bit of freelance work to pay the bills, reflecting a career change probably back to my first passion with writing, and preparing to try out a move to Sydney. Looks like I have decided after all.