I'm not dealing very well with his sudden absence. Strange how in such a short time, absence can feel enduringly painful. Depression's such a disability.

My contract with VW's almost up. There's a chance I can get it extended. And there's also other work offers. But I don't know what to decide, I can't think of doing anything else except wanting to be with him in Sydney so badly right now. Saying I'm "missing him terribly" is a severe understatement.

*crawls under the doona & soaks the pillow in tears*