Being aware of that means I can have a certain degree of control over it, doesn't it? I wish it was that easy, but it's almost easier to just let it take over.

It's at emo moments like these when all kinds of irrational decisions take on the better of you. Negativity sweeps you up and tells you you've been wrong all this while, no matter what you've been working for.

image from Getty Images I was on the brink of freaking out realising that my BFG would be coming to KL in just 29 short days! But taking control of this means telling myself how happy I'd been in the last three months, and how his coming over is going to be the most awesome date I'll ever have! In fact, I am so genuinely excited about it that I'd almost blanked out that I'll be flying off to another country before he gets here! That just goes to show where my priorities seem to be these days. And if only you could hear my thoughts about being with him...

I mean, I've been through LDRs before but nothing is enough to prepare you for the frustration of not being able to be together physically if everything feels right. Its even more baffling to myself with how much patience this is teaching me in the process. I am not exactly the most patient person, nor the most aggressive when it comes to temperaments. But when the love bears more good fruit than bad, don't you just want to nuture it the best you could?

I can't even begin to explain the things we've felt and shared about with each other. No matter how much he tells me I'm good with words, even words are liars to really describe what is truly happening. One thing for sure that we've told each other is that when we meet, it's not going to be like we're meeting for the first time... It's more like we're meeting again.