I'm feeling completely unhinged. And have been since I got here. Something about being in a country with a foreign language you can't work with that makes me homesick. I feel quite handicapped being unable to ease the load off Tomoko because of the language barrier. She seems to be doing everything when I'm supposed to share her load. I'm trying very hard to do what I can, but it's double work having her to translate everything to me. I hate feeling helpless and dependant, even with work. But this is a reality I've to deal with. And in less than 24 hours, so will the rest of the crew.

Just to get my mind off the stress, I try to cope as much as I can by my meagre communication with Lee... The sky mail service is the Japanese equivalent to our SMS. No GSM network can send SMS here. So the next best thing is email to mobile phone.

But honestly, I still feel farther away from him. Ironic for me to say that when we've always been apart all this while. I just feel like the stress is adding a strange kind of strain for us. On my part especially. *sigh* 18 more days...