image from getty images He's snoring into my ear right now, and it feels like I'm sneaking up quietly typing this beside him. I know I should be feeling bad for having him talk to me til he dozes off (oh, like I really feel guilty about that? =P) but I can't seem to get myself pried off the computer every time he comes online. He feels close to me like this. His voice feels soothing. His breathing calms me. His words make me smile. His very presence makes my cheeks hurt all day! I can't help that I'm addicted, no.... obsessed with my BFG. *^_^*

We're strange in the way we spend hours talking to each other late into the night or into daybreak. I do feel guilty keeping him up sometimes because he's two hours ahead. Not that I get much sleep myself from all the long hours at work. But until we decide what to do with this "distance", its something we're bearing with with a whole lot of excitement and love.

The anticipation is exciting, of him finally coming down... erm, up. And it's only 6 more weeks to go! I keep thinking about how surreal all this is. Two bloggers in two different continents, finding each other's blogs on blogshares, linking each other up, reading about each other for over three years, then falling in love and meeting.

I used to wonder how is anything like this possible. Everyone's read a lot of blogs. What does falling in love with the person behind those entries mean? Isn't that like falling in love with a book author? How much of what you know of that person is fiction? Or reality? I did wonder that maybe he knows enough about me to deceive me, but after the first few days of talking to him on YM, I found a captivating sense of optimism and genuineness about him.

Then I asked myself, how much of what I've read on his blog is real? The things he writes aren't always about his thoughts. It's more about his work, which is somewhat related to what I do, that'd explain why I kept his link for so long. But what do I know about him as a person? That made things more interesting, of course. It meant I could bug him to tell me everything about him. Hehe...

Along the way, I didn't expect him to tell me he was falling in love with me. I choked. It hadn't taken very long for him to tell me he loves me. I did find myself infatuated with him, but thought it was incredulous that it could be love. In such a short time? We were intense, the things we talked and laughed about were insane. It was a connection I can't explain. Love at first click? Hahaha.... And even though its technically been 3 months since that first email he sent me, we both feel like it's been a year!

Have you ever had someone who made you feel like you could do anything in the world? Or that being with him meant endless possibilities for the future with both of you together? Have you ever been so happy being with someone that it didn't matter how bad your day was? Or how much of a bad mood or how tired you were? These feelings might just be the honeymoon period of any relationship, but I just know that this is one person I want to make an effort to love, deo volente, forever.