28-yr old nocturnal over@nal geekette Malaysian.
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364 days to go
Change alone is eternal, perpetual, immortal.
~Arthur Schopenhauer
I pray this ain't the alcohol writing, cos' I know I've had one too many in the last two weeks than I had in the whole year put together! Tsk. But a part of me really wants to make it by finally putting into writing these achievable resolutions I've been procrastinating for far too long. If it's going to sit in the mental recesses of my mind, who's to say it shouldn't be typed out here in my thinking deck? Who knows, your egging on and checking on me might just give me that extra boost I've been looking for need.
So, long overdue resolution number 1 -
To finally write, shoot & produce at least one documentary (or short film) of my own. I've had so many ideas and leads into producing good stories but never have been able to *cough* find the time to do it. Not having the resources is shit of an excuse. So all the more I should. Especially after helping BL produce "Vanilla Vodka" for the Astro AEC Short Film competition last year, and it actually made nominations for Best Videography! Speaking of which, it airs today - Jan 1st, 2006 on Astro AEC at 6pm!
Resolution number 2 -
To spend a little more time with my godson, Angelus. Hah! Pat, I'm putting it here so you can nag me all you want. =P Shall I say, at least once a month?
Resolution number 3 -
To get into my system that "Work is not me, and I am not my work." This current project drained the f*king hell out of me for a reason. To teach me that there are some things in life that passion should be reserved for. And it sure as hell ain't whored shows like this one.
Resolution number 4 -
To resume that little personal touch for really close friend's birthdays, special days. Reminiscing back on school days when I used to take that extra time to draw and make little cards and momentos "just for the sake of it" - made me wonder what my excuse is for not doing that anymore. People don't appreciate it? Hah. How many of you miss getting a little something in snail mail? Or even flowers delivered? SMS texts takes all the romance and devalues appreciation out of sheer laziness. The things money can buy these days.
Resolution number 5 -
To get with a relationship detox programme. Ha-ha. I have to admit that I am emotionally screwed because I don't take post relationships and rebounds seriously. This from a person who's seen four serious relationships *almost* back to back since she was 16, where would I have found the time?! *gasp* I've been calling this last break up my period of redemption, but I've definitely failed in taking it seriously the moment my heart takes one fell swoop. My ex's detox programme is his photography. I thought mine was Toffee. Nyek. Seriously, maybe if I did start taking to producing my own little films on the side, that would probably help channel all that passion. Or would it? Yes, I need alot of help finding the right programme.
I can hear some of you choking to laugh by now. =P Especially if you're familiar with my work hours and the amount of anti-socialness it devours from me as a result. But we'll see, I swear. Alot of you friends out there right now would know me better by now, that when I put my mind to it... Hey, I was director by 25, and producer by 26! When I assumed the latter by 30.
So, we've 364 days to go and counting...
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happy new year to you, yods!
fridaysdust | January 1, 2006 5:21 PM