28-yr old nocturnal over@nal geekette Malaysian.
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2005 that was
Oh no. Not another sentimental New Year's post. I can't help it, I've been sinking into melancholy no matter how hard I try otherwise. Especially when I found my 2004 postings somewhere on this server...
I have relationitis n. Diseased & inflamed relationships with people who should mean most to me. (I just made that up, btw) It's just all a mess for me. I think I've really gotten all my priorities mixed up and lost my smarts identifying who are my real friends. I used to be this uptight, don't trust anyone easily person who's had so many ideals and principles. Now I've just let my guard down and been burnt.
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I've taken myself out of the whole "marriage pressure" phase and into self actualization. I guess you could say it'll be like a New Year's resolution, even though I've never been into doing them. But I think this one's special, cos I'll be damned if I don't. =P
I stopped making resolutions a long time ago. But after finding this, that I did make one last year, and it's one more day til 2006 arrives, I feel like I've failed myself. I don't remember what self-actualization I was referring to, but I know I don't think I've taken myself out of the "marriage pressure". I did, for 11 months of the year, until he came walking in. That's not progress, is it?
What are you doing NYeve? Debaucherous plans have gone out the window. I don't think getting a hangover before going whitewater rafting is a good idea. And neither am I going to let myself sink into depression of wishful thinking. So...
... but when I'm with you, all I see is you
nothing really matters;
Is it a crime, I'm losing my mind
Is it a crime, to be in love with you
... to be in love with you
~Crime, Shelley Leong
Comments
whatever will be, will be. only time will bring you what is yours. happy new year, midnite lily! smile!
eternity | December 31, 2005 6:18 PM
ooo i like shelley's lyrics.. very apt =)
hugs have a good year ahead
cyber-red | December 31, 2005 11:18 PM